i thought you liked me

hello :D in a mood for making a short story, hahaha. i think im not gonna finish I'll Never Let This Go, i think i will just let that go. hahaha but im gonna think about it again. and decide later, for now, enjoy this please

its been 8 months and we are classmates. i dont know how to call this, we always chatted and laughed and texted, but you've never confessed anything to me. sometimes it makes me dying to know how your feeling to me, but then i think that if i ask you about that, you'll probably run and hide. so i keep this question for myself. it started when we just attended high school. we're in the same class. you caught me in the eye and then, i fell for you, i dont know what you thought that day but i saw you smiled, and then i smiled as well. then you asked me for my name, so asked you back. im Blair and youre Nike. i was about to sleep when i got your first text message. you cant imagine how i screamed without making any noise that time. i forgot about sleep and texted you back.

it was a boring friday night when you phoned me, i was speechless, and i know you were too. we didnt talk to much but it was quite awesome. i dreamed about you all day and wondering if you did the same thing. and then we got so much closer and closer, we walked home together and the whole class thought we were a couple. but i havent heard you say anything like "i like you" or else. i thought you liked me, but the truth is.. i didnt know a thing. i just felt comfortable this way and didnt want to let you go. even i was dying to know but it was worth it.

we were going through this way and i fell in love with you, deep and deeper. you always smiled when i smiled. you hugged me when i was too tired or too upset. you hugged me and then i can smell you. i love your smell. and then one day, we fought. i didnt remember exactly how, but we were on fire. it was raining and it was outside. i was crying and cursing you. but you didnt even curse me back. it makes me regret what ive done that day. i cried and cried and then you hugged me, you also cried, you hugged me, so hard that i barely breathed.

i tried to push you but i cant. and then you didnt hug me. but you held my hands, you touched my cheek, you wiped away my tears. and at that time, you kissed me. i feel like burnt, my heart was beating so fast and i almost not breathing. i felt the passion, i felt your unsaid love. i was so happy and cried with happy tears.

it was perfect. you held my hands again after we kissed. it was... so perfect. until a beautiful girl came and called you, i remember her name, it was Georgia. it should be the day you confessed your love to me, it should be. but i was wrong, your face looked surprised. and then you smiled. a really different smile that you ever showed me. i was shocked and wondering, who that girl is. you walked me home but you seemed not there. you was right beside me but i didnt know where your heart was. i saw you keep smiling. i knew the reason, i just didnt wanna admit it.

and then you said goodbye. and then i felt it was your last goodbye, because the next day, Georgia was in our class. sat at the one and only empty chair--next to you. i was dying a whole inside because i saw you blushed. then i knew she was your girlfriend. you broke up with her just because you two were separated, but then God gathered you both again. what should i do? you didnt text me again and youve never called me for a week. i keep seeing you but you suddenly seemed dont care. i didnt know what to do. i love you for no reason, and i need a reason about why you act like this.

i cried all night long and felt like didnt wanna go to school anymore. i didnt eat anything and took a day off. but then a day after i took a day off, the whole class was mad. they were celebrating something. i wondered what is that, so i asked my chairmate, and she said exactly like this "omg i dont know how to say this, it must be really hard for you but... yesterday, when you took a day off, Nike confessed his feeling to Georgia, in front of the whole class! it was amazing... but you know, i know you and him are... a perfect unconfessed couple.. but.."

i didnt hear anything anymore, i didnt cry, not even care about what is going on earth. it was so hard that day, i didnt feel anything anymore. i became such a sad person, i became a veggie and i stopped talk to much. i just have a few friends now, everything seemed just around you and her. you seemed so happy, so did her. youve never faced me again. i still love you, but it was not worth it like the old days. i still love you and pray for your goodness.

you know?
i deserved better, you dont know it today, but you'll find out soon. so watch out.

i know it sucks! at least i tried. hope you like it haha
byeeees~

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